The Beginning

Well, I've caved. I've decided to join the club of blogging. I read so many of my friends blogs that I decided to join in on the fun.

Today is December 26th, the day after Christmas. Obviously. This Christmas was wonderful. Went home and spent Christmas Eve Eve with the loves in my life. I love my girls. Every time I go home, back up to NY, and see them I gain a little more strength, confidence and I remember who I truly am. It's always a little easier crossing the NY/PA State Line, headed back to our "home" in PA, when I have a little added strength from my people. The people who understand who I am, how I am, and why I am the way that I am.

Christmas Eve and Christmas Day were a whirlwind of events, but I loved it! This is the first year that I actually enjoyed every single event. I didn't have an anxiety attack and I didn't stress or cry! Well, I mean I cried tears of happiness and because my cousin is so cute and adorable, but no tears of sadness!

This year, just like last, amongst all the events, laughter, drinks and joy, I sat back and paused. Across the kitchen at my sister's, I saw my husband. My sweet, funny, loving husband who I adore with all my heart. Seeing him across the room, laughing and talking with his hands (like he always does..hehe) was the best present and will be the best present for the rest of my life. Although this was his second Christmas home, you still can't really forget about the year he wasn't here. I hate to bring that up, but the joy, oh the joy that fills my heart and soul! To see him across the room, to see him chatting it up with friends and family, to just hearing him laugh is pure bliss. It puts a smile on my face, even now :)

I just hope that my husband, my family and my friends know how much I love them. How much they have helped me, and continue to help me, become a better person and to help me love myself. Because of a few people in my life, I know what true friendship and love really is and that really does put my heart and mind in a healthy, peaceful place. Thank you. :)