Birthday Weekend & So Much More

Hello everyone! It's Friday morning, I'm unemployed, so what better than posting an entry to my blog! :) haha

So last Friday was my 25th birthday, hard to believe I'm 25. My birthday weekend was beautiful. Literally. Beautiful weather, beautiful people, everything was beautiful. Friday, I cut my hair. Wasn't really sure I was going to do it until I sat in the chair. The girl cut so much hair off she even said "We could make a stuffed animnal with all your hair!" It looks gorgeous if I do say so myself. haha. Saturday began with getting my new state license. The picture is hilarious. The man who took it asked if I wanted a new picture because this one is so ... sad...lol but I said no. It only shows my excitement of getting a new license. haha! After that me and the hubs went and picked up our brand new Ford Escape. It is gorgeous! My wonderful husband even let me drive it off of the lot! Here this new vehicle is, and it's pretty much my husband's new vehicle, but he let me drive it off the lot. I love him. I'm so happy for him. He's worked so hard, fought for our freedom, dedicated almost eight years to keeping us all safe.. I think that if anyone deserves a new car..it's him. I'm not going to lie, Friday night we cleaned out the old Escape and I cried. I explained to my hubs that this old thing gave me hope. On our first date he let me drive it and that is where we had our first kiss. Of course, me being me, after we cleaned out the car I took pictures of it. Made my husband stand by the car so I could take a picture. Took a picture of the old license plate. But I'm not going to lie, the new Escape is sooooo damn pretty!!!!! lol!! As my husband says "We are big pimpin' in this thing" lol!!

After we got the Escape some (not all...I am blessed that I have so many loves that they can't all fit in my apartment!!!) of my loves came down to help celebrate my birthday. We went to the Hershey Outlets to do alittle shopping then came back and spent hours upon hours outside, chatting, grilling, drinking, etc. Even my girl K from my old office came to meet everyone. I had said to her "you want to know what Binghamton is all about?....well you're about to meet Binghamton.." haha. She was great, everyone loved her, and she fit right in! I'm so thankful for her in my life. I know that she's got my back, and that if something were to happen and my sister or one of my girls couldn't make it down here right away, that she'd be here...no questions asked. I'm so glad I didn't let someone's judgments about her get to me, I'm glad I made my own judgment, the judgment that my life is a little better and fun with her in it!

So after all of the birthday cake was eaten, the beer bottles cleaned out, and everyone had left to go home, I realized how I have no clue what I'm doing. lol! I hate that I'm back out there looking for jobs, I hate that I am not contributing to my life with my husband. You can't help but feel a wee bit depressed when you feel semi-like a failure. I guess you could say that I feel like I'm in the eye of a hurricane, but I didn't even have the calm before the storm. I didn't even get a warning from the Weather Channel that a hurricane was coming. I woke up one morning this week and realized I'm already in the middle of the damn storm, and really..do I even want to get out of bed? But then my girl calls, we go out to lunch,she makes me laugh and for an hour or so, I'm ok. Thank God for her, facebook, the Deadliest Catch, baybreezes, Coors Light, my friends from Bing and of course, my husband. I'm feeling a tad weak, but I will dig down deep for my strength. This is nothing. I've been through a lot worse. I think I just need to prioritize my life. Find out what I truly love and throw the rest out. lol. Horrible, I know, but the last month, I've learned some things. I've been thrown in the poop a few times, but I've gotten up, wiped it off, and laughed. And really that's all I can do, that's all any of us can do, laugh. Laugh off the poop. It may piss off the people that threw you in the poop, but really that's just an added bonus! I hope you are all doing well. I hope you have been enjoying the beautiful weather, and your beautiful life. We all have hard times, but remember, just laugh. Even if you're in the car by yourself...laugh. Laughing really does heal your soul.

My love to you all!